i can spot a single mother
across walmart or the grocery store.
or fixing sandwiches behind the counter
all of us doing double time
to make ends meet. to keep the
roof over our heads. making sure
our children eat. that the electricity
isn't turned off.
the other night,
i went to celebrate recovery.
taylor, my oldest, to the gym.
all of me itched for a solid, two-hour
work-out, but keeping my sobriety
wooed me more than the other.
thinking taylor would be home
before i was. i left the house key
on the chest in the living room.
when i got home, the door was
locked. no key under the mat.
i got back in the car, to the gym.
and while waiting for my son to
answer the page (had ear phones
in, listening to his music so didn't
hear), i was visiting with sandy behind
the counter. handing out towels. etc.
finally, she came over,
and just the two of us were talking.
ann, i've worked here for seven years,
and still get $9 an hour. isn't that pitiful?!!
no benefits. nothing.
i found taylor.
he handed me the house keys.
as i was driving home, God
ann, remember all the cash
at home that you got out for the
rent? give her $100 in My name.
these are my most glorious moments!!
the THRILL of helping Jesus in my
neighborhood. my face gets flushed
with excitement. heart pounding.
grabbing $100, and zooming back
to the gym. pushing through the front
door, i found her standing alone. wrap-
ping up for the night.
i rolled the bill
so she couldn't see
the amount. opened her
hand, and closed her fingers around
sandy (fictitious name),
i give this to you in the name
of Jesus. i don't care what you do
a glorious God.
radiance on her face.
she began to weep.
sandy, this is not mine.
but God's. He knows ALL your
needs. covers you when you
are in pain. when you have run
out of all your resources.
she kept crying.
hugging me. kissing my face.
sandy, are you
a single mother?
yes, three children.
whoa! we were sisters.
leaning hard on Jesus to
keep us afloat. i know because
i have four as a single mother.
oh, ann, i love you.
you'll never know what
this means. miracles really
do happen! you have no idea
how much i needed this.
soaring with the angels.
the Divine. joining in God's
kingdom efforts on earth.
as fresh as the early morning
sky. as quiet as the sun stretching
lower and lower across the horizon.
single parents. alone and difficult,
yet NEVER alone. NEVER abandoned.
"guide me, oh, Thou great Jehovah.
lead me through this barren
i am weak, but Thou art mightly.
guide me with Thy powerful hand.
bread of Heaven,
feed us 'til we want no more.
bread of Heaven,
feed us 'til we want no more."