Saturday, October 10, 2009

"i'm brennan. i'm an alcoholic.
how i got there, why i went back, is
the story of my life.
i'm brennan. i'm a catholic
is not the whole story.
i'm brennan. i was a priest but no longer.
i'm brennan. i'm a sinner, saved by grace.
only God, in His fury, knows the whole of it."
brennan manning



dark.
forboding.
buried. yearning.
begging for God's liberation.
for truth. so many struggles.
the sweet taste of liberation.
freedom.

gay vs. straight.
compulsive eating.
addicted to sex. pornography.
so broken.

"whiter than snow.
yes, whiter than snow.
now wash me and i
shall be whiter than snow."

i've been through the wilderness.
the desert. the deep, dark waters.
dived into the glistening, pure waters
of a swimming pool. begging...pleading
to be clean. washed.

we are all broken.
shattered glass.
charred emptiness.
except for Jesus.

purge us.
heal the charred despair.
get on the rug. in the car. on the floor.
scream for power in the Blood.
for there is no other.
none at all.
only the Blood.

4 comments:

WriteCards said...

Brennan Manning is among my favorite authors . . . he allows others to learn from his experiences, yet his experiences always point to God.

It's the same for you. You learn from others and then share your experiences with others and point the way to God.

May He always light the path!

Vickie

TARSmith said...

I'm Terri. I'm not an alcoholic but, like Brennan, my only hope is Jesus. In the end I will be satisfied that He gets all the glory and I get to go Home.

Terri
Marion, IN

Donna said...

This came at a very good time...Thank you!

barb said...

My favorite entry so far from reading from the beginning.

Wow! Powerful!

"scream for power in the Blood.
for there is no other.
none at all.
only the Blood."